The Funky Mind Soup

The importance of taking risks

2012-01-23T13:10:00.000-08:00

I believe the words you use in your inner thoughts are the most important. When I need to take risks, my brain does not say "I don't fear taking risks" because I do, It's easier for my brain to process risk when I say "I welcome actions that will help me become a stronger and better person" because then the fear that I felt becomes a little pebble and courage becomes a large ocean that swallows it.

Inspiration from Trees

2011-11-20T20:07:00.000-08:00

Trees,
They keep their roots to the ground and their shoots to the sky,
they keep growing
day or night, rain or shine,
they stand their ground
and still continue to change,
and when they return back to the earth, giving life, their energy always remains.

Source of Photo: http://www.terrytheweaver.ie/images/Tapestries/HealingTree.jpeg

Love

2011-11-08T02:29:00.000-08:00

Sometimes love and kindness can't be equally returned to the original source. Once Love and kindness is unleashed, it flows in different directions. Some love returns to the original source, some stays with the receiver of love and some love kept by the receiver is given to others. I think that is cycle of love.

An example is the sun, the sun gives love energy to all things on earth. Every flower, every blade of grass, rock and animal can never give back the sun the exact type of love energy it was given. The earth reflects some of the suns energy back to the sun, some of it is soaked up in its soil and the rest is given to all other things on earth.

My inspiration for this post is my family, friends and kind strangers. I have been very blessed with love and kindness from many people. Sometimes I feel undeserving because I think I could never fully reciprocate the love and kindness these beautiful people have given to me especially my grandparents. When I was a little kid, they comforted me when I was sick, cheered me up when I was sad, and fed me when I was hungry. The flow and cycle of love is not back and forth path, it is more dynamic. The truth is that the cycle of love is not equal retribution but transforming energy to continue its cycle.

-Jeanette

Life is not a game or a Power Struggle

2011-09-28T23:51:00.000-07:00

Some people want to play as though life is some power struggle; who has more, who knows more, who has dominance and influence, but honestly life isn't a game to me, and the only power I want is the courage to love; the courage to love myself and love others. If love was the basis of all human society, we would create things that would promote respect, healing, and nurturing instead of selfishness, harm and deprivation. I am an idealistic person because sometimes being realistic does not make sense to me. What is the point of being realistic if it is not helping me create the world I want to see?

Original Source of picture: http://irondoomdesign.deviantart.com/art/desert-flower-9010341

Advice for my future children

2011-09-26T20:03:00.000-07:00

Words of advice I would like to tell my future children are:

"My hope is not that your life never be confronted with obstacles, pain and struggles because from my experience those things are necessary. My hope is that every time you experience obstacles, pain, and struggles you find a way to face and overcome them, and allow those experiences shape you into a more compassionate, giving, and stronger person. I love you"

I think one of the most powerful ideas I have encountered has been the power of vulnerability. This video by Brene Brown explains through her research how whole hearted people live.

Awesomo McQueen Shoes!

2011-09-18T13:48:00.000-07:00

Love these shoes, this is my next DIY project convert old shoes into cool lace Alexander McQueen Fall 08 shoes! Some people don't like to wear older season clothing, I am just one of those people who think that when something is hot, something is hot!

Original source is from: http://www.style.com/fashionshows/complete/F2008RTW-AMCQUEEN

Awesomo Style from Guanajuato, Mexico

2011-09-15T12:45:00.000-07:00

I loved the cool art in GTO.

Cool door knobs in GTO

This is a cool car hood ornament that I would pass by on my way to el Centro.

This is a mural of the Virgin Mary located on the long stair case to see El Pipila.

Another beautiful mural on the Pipala way.

Mural of a woman on the Pipila way

MuSiCaLcArOuSel Art

2011-09-14T12:56:00.000-07:00

Cool Blog by a cool artist that happens to be my sis!
http://mymusicalcarousel.com

Message in A Dream

2011-09-14T12:51:00.000-07:00

I've had many omens and messages in my dreams. But Its been a while since I've been able to recall a dream and when I do, I know that my soul is trying to talk to me.

Recently I dram of a young woman in tattered clothes who was climbing up a cliff. It looked as though every step she took and every breath she drew in was so heavy, as though it consumed all her energy and as she climbed higher the sky around her would became grayer. She was very close to the top, but it soon started to rain and the water rose quickly reaching her ankles, she slipped and was overcome by the currents. The water pulled, tossed and dragged her body everywhere. Water entered her lungs and it seemed that she was not breathing. The water started to calm and the sun started to rise. As the sun came up her body was washed ashore, she laid on the sand among starfish. Her clothes were not the same tattered clothes it was a beautiful light blue dress. She suddenly woke up and the water trapped in her lungs came out of her mouth like a little fountain. She stood up and walked on the sunlit beach and looked at me and kept saying "I no longer have fear", "I no longer have fear". She walked passed me then I just saw her heading up to the top of the cliff using a path on land instead of climbing the cliff. The dream ended.

I think this message is about choices I've made and how sometimes in my stubbornness I don't listen to my real desires not until external forces humble me and force me on to the path I must take. I am undergoing a lot of external changes, so many many things are out of my control and I've realized so many have never been, but as I've lost so many material things, and some friendships due to change, I have gained true confidence through compassion of myself, compassion for others, and taking the time to create things that have been waiting for me.

A Fascinating Creature, The Hater

2011-08-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

The hater is a unique creature. It huffs and puffs and tries to blow your house down. Oh that hater! Well, at least its honest!

When you encounter the hater do not have fear, do not hide, and especially do not become a hater, let the hater be, and allow it to unravel itself before you in its natural habitat, it usually comes with some goodies.

Let me be the first to say that I love my haters and enemies cause they show me love too!

Remember all those things your loved ones try to teach you but it usually doesn't stick, well with the hater the gifts it gives you are harder to forget.

The hater teaches you how to be smarter, have more patience, be peaceful, and the value of hard work by showing you how to prepare for hater encounters. The hater shows you its going to attack when it perks up its ears and its hairs start to raise in other words can't stand the sight of you. This is when you show it your cleverness, before it pounces, you blind it with your pearly white smile and throw it a meat filled treat in other words a compliment. The hater will be so stunned and too busy eating it up that by the end it will be too full to move. You wish it would be the last time you would have to kick it a treat but this is where patience comes in, you will give it as many treats as it can stand until its too fat to move, in other words, the hater is finally happy and it doesn't need to waste time talkin smack, but some haters are never satisfied or have bad hearing.

Not even the bad hearing stops the hater. The hater is a persistent creature, it always wants to sniff you out, follow you and growl. This is where peace comes in. The hater will continue to growl at you, in other words talk shit, they will try to make others haters too but what the hater doesn't realize is that one's actions and thoughts are what make your world pretty or make your world ugly, And while the hater spends a lot of dedication to his hating craft, talkin all the good shit and being a sour grouch, you spend time making shit into bricks in other words loving yourself by making a bad situation into a chance to work out your mental strength muscle and find peace, so as the hater continues to growl, huff, and puff toward you, when you listen to it from your brick house the hater sounds more like an an annoying fart that you just laugh at while you sip on some tea. If it ever tries to get physical, you just let them fall on their own weight with your awesomo Tai Chi Qi Gong moves.

A key point in the hater animal kingdom is that haters never last because they end up destroying themselves or in a good outcome they evolve. This is where the hater teaches you about seeing into people's soul, forgiveness and compassion. The hater even in its misery will never admit that it is unhappy henceforth it hates. But you with your mental brick house strength look through your windows where you can see the hater's soul. When you look you see a person who has been hurt a lot and was too weak to overcome and learn from pain, and too selfish to give love. Because of your keen senses and the fact that you are really rich in love, you choose to forgive others because you learn to have compassion from seeing into the haters soul. There is always hope for a hater to become a lover, just like in Beauty and the Beast.

So remember to love your haters because they need it and it is also a blessing in your life. I thank the great Katt Williams and the coolest Dalai Lama for inspiring me to write this story.

-Jeanette Jay Arr

Funky things to do on the cheap and free

2011-08-09T08:34:00.000-07:00

I have spent two months in Guanajuato, Mexico and one of the biggest lessons that I learned from my fellow gente is that Family is the number priority for a lot of the folks here. i realized that I don't spend nearly as much time as I should with my family and I really love them so I am going to change that. So in that effort, I made a list of free things I could do with my family since I am taking a year off work to finish school. Feel free to post other glam-ulous ideas!

1. Plan a FAMILY GAME NIGHT AND POTLUCK- Board games, Twister, Fish Tacos and fries, I think Yes!

2. Do art and craft projects with my mom, aunties and my sisters-cousins, Like: Paint with water color, Make Halloween costumes, Make Christmas Ornaments, Make jewelry, Make stencils for shirts and definitely craftychica.com and craftgawker.com it!

3. Garden with my grandpa, plant tomatoes and amaranth

4. Bake with my grandma, cook with my grandma, wake up early and help my grandma out

5. bake with my cousins using different types of flour, get ideas from Sweetopia,

6. Do Yoga, Tai Chi and belly dancing with my sisters-cousins and friends.

7. Go to the thrift store and high end stores to get inspired to sew my own clothes

8. Design and sew clothes

9. Have picnics in the day and take a tea set and a posh DIY silky canopy

10. Get a blow up boat and paddle from the garage and row across lake Elizabeth

11. Have a picnic at night with tea set and tea candles

12. Make a sweat lodge in the back yard with Grandpa and plant flowers near it

13. Girl's night in- Experiment with make-up, clothes, and nails on yourself and family and friends.

14. Do Karaoke on youtube with the clan.

15.Decorate your room or any other room

16. Do a Polaroid photo session with yourself and friends

17. Make photo sideshow to show your family

18. Make and altar or shrine with pictures of people you love and things you love

19. Watch Bollywood and Old Mexican classic films with the fam.

20. Take your mp3 and speakers and some friends to the park and dance to some cumbia music to the park

21. DVD marathon of El Chavo del Ocho with your family

More to come :)

Necessary Paths

2011-08-09T01:36:00.000-07:00

I walk in paths inside

There are many, many roads

some will take you to pain

and some will take you to happiness

but all are necessary

I walked, ran and got lost in many

With much persistence I followed the path I needed

the path of healing

before I entered, I needed to prepare

I bathed in the water of honesty

I dried in the sunlight of hope

before I was ready

I needed to burn the sorrow of the past

with the fire of strength I burned all the past

I watched guilt, shame and fear turn to ashes

and as it burned, my spirit became lighter

and my heart grew bigger

the past did not disappear

but changed as nature leads things to.

instead of the past being a source of pain

it became the base on which I planted.

In the ashes, I put piece of my heart

and I watered the heart seed with tears of forgiveness

from it sprung a tree with fruit of wisdom

and that fruit is feeding me on my journey

as I walk through the desert of love

the signs and omens say

leave fear behind, and open your heart

and I know to stay on the path I must be patient

and I know to stay on the path I must be brave

As I enter the desert, obstacles are present

those that I can see and those that I am blind to

those that appear randomly and those put purposely

it all depends on my thoughts

sometimes I succeed and sometimes I fail

But honestly I am happy every time I try

because when I succeed I can accept joy

and when I fail I can accept pain and it

turns to compassion and wisdom

In the desert of love I can create

and be that who I choose

and it all starts on the inside

so I can exist on the outside

and together they are called experience

Experiences are beautiful forces

something I can not fight just surrender to

As I have surrendered to my experiences, and accept my vulnerability

love has grown in me

Out of love inside, everyday I have courage to accept myself and life

and that brings me peace

-Jeanette Ramos

2011-08-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

If you don't have humor, life will eat you alive!

Music of Depth

2011-08-08T17:09:00.001-07:00

I really love Robi Draco Rosa's music. He has a beautiful voice and a lot of his songs feel like submerging into a sea of rose petals after walking through many thorns. I love it when people live life with passion because life is a gift and mystery.

Tru 2 thyself

2010-11-11T19:18:00.000-08:00

I am writing this because my aim at this moment in time is to be open. If you are reading this, it is by no accident. you are reading this because you have stepped near this self-realization as well and you just wanted to remember what it was like to recall it.

I always felt like I was a picture. Only to be stared at, only to be be noticed as a unique piece of art, but then discarded and forgotten not really to be kept. The picture hung only as long as it pleased others. The picture reflected beautiful things, emotion, humor, depth, and sincerity but still it was nothing more than a cold and calculating image. The picture only hung to make others happy. The picture is a picture, nothing is really inside of it but the illusion of the eyes that seek it.

I felt that I was just a display because there was no warmth or realness. I was only there to make others happy, I was only there so people can use me and put me away, but I didn't even know what made me happy.

To me, a picture is a still moment and its purpose is to reflect a moment of sequence, just a memory, just a machine, just what people want to see, but not really what is.

I wanted to be more than a picture. I wanted to be myself. Not even today can I explain who I am but at least I know I am not a robot. I am real because I love, I am real because I make mistakes.

Just the other day I was recalling my trip to Visalia. I couldn't believe everything that was coming out of my mouth, I cursed alot. All things which came out of my mouth were not righteous. I felt guilty and I felt a sense of failure.

But then I knew why I said what I said, because I needed to remove that anxiety from within. That is me. Anxiety of all. I make mistakes, I curse sometimes, I laugh, I cry, I get mad, I get really happy, I am just a me, it doesn't matter who's standards I do not meet, It is a question of whether I meet my standards.

I realized that I don't have to live for anyone but just myself. JUST MYSELF. It makes me happy however that God loves us, and He said Love your brother, But I also remember GOD(whatever it is) LOVES ME, and for that my happiness is necessary too. That means that I don't have to say all the right things or do all the right things all the time, but it should come out of my desire of doing things that is the key to my sense of satisfaction.

Edited from my original poem I wrote on Thursday, January 12, 2006 on myspace.com
© Jeanette Gabriela Ramos-Comonfort

I belong to the heartbroken club

2009-12-07T17:23:00.000-08:00

When I discovered love I discovered life,
Now that love is gone, I want to die,
but really I'm afraid of change,
afraid of taking my own life by the reins
I have fallen and I don't know how to get up
my wings have been clipped
my mouth has been zipped
my soul drowns in tears and fears
This pain finds no end
Loneliness is my only friend

The kisses and caresses are gone
What good is my body now no brains or brawn
can find me peace and a warm home of the type
that elivens these bones
Now the sun can't warm my soul

I love you
I wish I can say I just fucked you
without a care or consequence
without restriction with all confidence
but the truth is I showed you my vulnerable side
the truths that my big smiles and hugs always try to hide
I know I cut myself deep
I know I feel stomped by all the feet
I just have no desire to get up
Please God let my my life run out
cause this pain and sorrow are my clouds
and nothing in this life can ever make be proud

O chem study guide

2008-05-19T17:38:00.000-07:00

A small movie I made to study o-chem, it's finished.

Cocoon

2008-05-19T16:40:00.000-07:00

Bjork in her video "Coccon"

MAAR DAALA

2008-05-19T16:31:00.000-07:00

A song from my favorite bollywood film DEVDAS,

AHIR BHAIRAV

2008-05-19T15:54:00.000-07:00

Beautiful voice I found this girl on youtube. ancient Indian Traditional song Raja style "Ahir Bhairav"

2008-05-19T14:46:00.000-07:00

An old Mexican Classic song. Malaguena Salerosa, performed by Antonio Aguilar.

2008-05-19T14:42:00.000-07:00

A genius that JARED HESS is.

Corn

2008-05-19T14:36:00.000-07:00

I like this video, the guy who directed Nacho Libre is a genius. Jared Hess, is a genius.

Today is my day

2008-02-04T20:21:00.000-08:00

I ate a couple of fish bones, I smell like Tilapia today. I like Tapatio sauce